Stuck in the Matrix

Whether real or imagined, he is a prince charming. However, he is in the Matrix and needs to be freed. i would do whatever it would take for him to be free...but letting him go for the only "One" that can really free him seems so painful. if i were to move now, it could be so ugly. if i wait, it may never happen, but then again, it may work out beautifully. He is not a Christian and i am. to love him in the most beautiful way means dying to my selfish desires. it's the beautiful love that dies for its love to live in love, beauty, peace and joy. on a shallow level...from the movie Moulin Rouge, when Harold Zidler tells Satine to hurt Christian to save him from the dukes gun...not quite the same scenario, but that same angst type of sick feeling that makes your stomache feel like a rock that is about to explode.